What is my life right Now ?

First I want to start off by saying ima recent graduate from Johnson & Wales University for Culinary Arts .

And I am at that stage in my life where I’m not in school and I’m not employed just back at my parents house actively searching for a job so I can get my life started .

I’ve been jobless for the whole summer and then some with no money constantly searching for jobs . It’s so annoying cause I’m the type of person that enjoys being busy with a job or doing something.

I’m so ready to start my life with my boyfriend but he’s in debt and I have no job no money. I know this can’t possibly last forever? But it seem like every time around when my period is about to come I feel useless , not worth much , just floating through life . I’m so annoyed and this feeling just recycles itself .

I don’t think I’m really looking for answers but I just felt like I needed to get this off my chest . Even if no one reads it 🤷🏾‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️