Masturbation Struggles...

ok so I've been masturbating for years now and have always been really satisfied with my self pleasure up until the past year. I'm a virgin and have never been in a relationship. All of my friends have dated and it makes me really sad sometimes because I crave intimacy. Sometimes I'll be going at it and I'll stop all of a sudden and just wish i didn't have to be alone all of the time. I wish that I were with a real person and not just a hairbrush handle. I've struggled with periods of time that i feel extremely lonely. I want to know what i can do to to hel

p this and not make a decision that i will regret. im 13 almost 14 btw

this is me