HELP!!! boyfriend/depression troubles.

my boyfriend has been bouncing from job to job since we've been together. which is 3.5 years and his most recent job he had the opportunity to go to California for a work barbeque and meet the owners of the company he's working for

he was there for 4 days. he calls me one of the nights saying that he got into it with one of the co-workers. will the co-worker complained about him and when my boyfriend got back that Sunday and went to work Monday he came home early which was a shock because he never left early. so he tells me he got sent home due to the altercation between him and his co-worker and there was an investigation going on and he was sent home until he got a call from him supervisor. about a week goes by and I'm sitting here like

when a week and a half goes by he finally tells me he got fired which is a fucking shitty thing to be in when we have $895 rent, almost$200 internet/TV. $100 in electric and$50 in City/trash pick up. while we we're splitting it two ways which was fine but now since he lost his job. I have to fucking pick up all the slack and I CAN'T pay all of that on my own. he's been applying to jobs but his time had been to pre occupied but this fucking thing

and when I try to talk to him he shuts down, pushes me away and doesn't want to talk which pisses me off to no end. and I try to talk to him about it and he just gets even more pissed. now it's been about almost 3 months since he's got fired and I told him to find ANYTHING for now as long as your pulling in some kind of income he's had a few interviews but he won't take them since they only pay $8-9 an hour and he was making $14 at his old job since he speaks French. but anything is better than nothing I told him. and so now I'm scraping by from paycheck to paycheck trying not to get evicted and have good in it house but at this point I'd rather have my dog have the food than me. so while he's been fucking around playing his game 24/7 with no sleep LITERALLY playing for 3-4 days at a time I'm over here stressing out battling with bills, my depression worsening and my anxiety going through the roof I'm feeling defeated like I'm about to lose everything soon. my mother called me wanting everyone to go to her house for dinner. so we go and I kind of figured what it was about without anyone telling me. my twin sister tells us

with her second child. which I'm happy for her. and her boyfriend are taking about how they're going to get a place a new car, get married which I'm happy for her. but I've been telling my boyfriend about a year ago I want a baby and he keeps telling me he wants to be financially set and make like $20+ an hour before he even considers it. but since I'm off the pill and have been for almost a year and a half he's like will if it happens it happens. but then when I was talking to my family about my sister's baby she's having they got on the subject of me having one and my boyfriend basically said we're not financially set and all this other shitty shit. which I agree to a certain extent but IF he didn't get fired and had a job he still wouldn't want one until he's basically rich. and I told him I don't want to be mid 30 to early 40's having a kid. No offense to people who already do. and he basically said if I were to get pregnant he would probably break up with me which inside feeling like this

I just don't know what to do. none of my family knows about him getting fired because I can't deal with what they would say in top of what's happening now. I have no friends to talk to I feel like I'm going crazy I don't know what to do. I'm sinking into a depression that at this point my medicine isn't helping. I just need someone to talk to. am I an asshole for being upset about this.