Missing My Bump

My baby girl was born at 35 weeks exactly. Due to PPROM I was in the hospital the week before she was born, trying to get to 34 weeks. The rupture sealed and I was released from hospital. Exactly a week later I had another rupture and they told me they would induce to prevent infection to the baby. I was due 11/18 and she was born 10/14. I have since been diagnosed with PPD. I haven't lost interest in my beautiful baby but I do feel like I'm doing everything wrong and like my body failed me. I feel guilty for not carrying to term. I had a stressful pregnancy since week 20 when I found out I had a shortened cervix. My daughter was 5lbs 4oz, 17 inches when born. I am having a really really hard time with my postpartum body. I miss my baby bump more than I can express. I am angry that my body is returning to it's pre pregnant self because I should be 36 and 3 days pregnant right now, only I'm not. Looking at my maternity clothes makes me bawl. I keep looking at old photos and just missing how I looked and felt before. Additionally, I desperately miss feeling her move within me. I spoke to her all the time and now everywhere I go it's shockingly clear how empty and alone I am.