Please help me. I don’t even know what is going on with me.

I don’t even know if this is the right thing to do or not by posting it but I really need some help. I don’t know if I’ve got anxiety, have panic attacks or if nothing is wrong with me and I’m completely normal.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 16 months and he’s literally the only one that knows about everything that’s going on with me. My mum and his dad have seen me have a “panic attack/thing” before but he’s the only one that’s seen almost all of them.

They’re sort of always happen when my body is involved, like for example if i am having sex with my boyfriend or pleasuring him or i’m being pleasured by him or if i’m in his bed when I’m not supposed to be because our parents have rules for my boyfriend and i as we’re only 17. I’m really self conscious of my body but don’t mind my boyfriend seeing because he has helped me so much with everything and I’m used to him seeing.

Whenever they happen it starts with my chest feeling really squashed and like it’s really hard to breathe because something heavy is sitting ontop of my ribs or something. It’s really uncomfortable and I get really puffed and out of breath. Before i get them and during i start to shake/shiver and that’s usually the first thing that starts to happen after the squashed chest feeling. The back of my neck also gets really sore during and afterwards. Like really stiff. A lot of the times i cry and get scared because I don’t know what’s going on and i hate the feeling.

My boyfriend has been with me every time i’ve had one because I usually only have them when I’m doing something sexual or doing something I shouldn’t be or my parents don’t know about. He sees when I’m having them and he talks to me and gets me to calm down. He manages the situation really well and calms me by counting numbers for me to breathe with and by getting me to listen to his heart beat (I don’t know why that calms me it just does) he also gets me dressed as quickly as possible because most of the time I’m naked or partly undressed.

When I have them my boyfriend if fine with them and he’s caring and doesn’t leave me alone until he knows that I’m okay and my pulse is back to normal but sometimes through text or phone calls he says I have to learn to control them and I have to do something about them so I don’t have them anymore but I don’t know what to do and I don’t even know if something is wrong or if it’s normal.

Do any of you know what this could be if it’s anything? Or do any of you have any strategies that could help me calm down or even prevent them from happening?