Social Anxiety

Basically my whole life I've dealt with this horribleness. I've always had such a hard time talking to people, making conversations and making friends. I'm surprised I even have a boyfriend. I don't have any friends...it's so strange because I want one but at the same time the thought of actually having one is overwhelming. I've been to therapy and it did help a little but I still struggle daily with my SA. I've even taken medication, 2 different kinds and all they did was make me drowsy. I'm so sick of living my life like this.

I just mainly wanted to rant and see if anyone suffers from social anxiety. Usually I just deal with it and go throughout my day but recently it has bothered me more at work. This idiot I sit by at work made a comment when this lady said hi to me and then the idiot said "She doesn't talk to anyone". Which is not true. I do talk to people but not long conversations. I am pretty quiet at work but I don't see the point of talking that much because when I do it's usually extremely awkward or I say something stupid and mainly just don't know what to say at all. His comment just hurt me and made all these feelings I've been having 10x worse.

Any advice would be appreciated. Sometimes I just feel like this freak.