It's hard.

My fiance just got his test results back from the fertility clinic and he was low in all stats. He is now on a male postnatal pill to increase his out put. My family doctor called to ask if anyone has spoken to me for the tests I have done, I answered no but an appointment is in the process of being made... now I am anxious and nervous and we are both severely stressed.

He is so disappointed and it breaks my heart to see him like that. I feel useless cause I can't do anything to help.

Now we found out my cousin's 16 year old son is having a child with his girlfriend, my best friend and my sister both just had babies, my Facebook feed is full of baby pictures and new borns.

I feel bad for feeling like this. I want to be happy for them, but it breaks my heart in the process.