what are you doing?!

we have been ttc I spotted but that was it. then I am late, like 10 days late...

then comes some nausea headaches and back pain. my SO amd I are like

he gets so excited making spreadsheets on how much we need to save, downlaods three baby apps...

and I'm sitting here like, ok time to pre on a stick. three tests later and nothing. but in still having symptoms. so hubby cancels his a Capella reversal for the night and drives me after work to the local womens health clinic to get a more accurate test.

unfortunately it also comes back negative, and neddless to say we were bummed.

so 20 days later I'm looking at myself in the mirror and going

why are you doing this to me?!

so I see my doctor and he's like your stressed. dont be alarmed if you are late with tour stress.

who knew moving starting a new job could stress you out? doesnt make me less lossy at my hormones. that's gotta be a personal foul right?

so follong month arrives and guess who shows?

so I'm like well alright at least you showed up this time you hooligan.

then next month repeat of the first roller coaster... spotting before she's supposed to rear her ugly head. seriously odd food cravings to the point my hubby is like

and I'm like

so I keep quiet cause ive been down this road and I don't want to have a come to Jesus moment with my girl. but I'm still excited

then two days later...

only with a vengeance like she's making up for lost time

so yay..

but I just wanted to say that reading tips and your stories of success and struggles means a lot! good luck!

now if you'll excuse me I'm going to have a come to Jesus moment...