#MeToo

When I was about 12-13 I was sexually molested by a friends cousin. My sister was there but didn't know what was happening and I was so scared that I didn't tell her and I never really spoke about it again. I had issues for a long time with substance abuse/depression/anxiety as a result of the abuse but have gotten to a point that I finally feel mentally and emotionally healthy. I feel like there is one final step though.... so this week is the week I plan to tell my parents and fiancé.... I know it will be really hard for them to digest and my mom will be pretty upset by it (she was raped when she was in her 20's but was always open with us about it). Honestly, my mom is a big part of the reason I never spoke about it. Because I knew she would be heartbroken. But now I feel like it's something I need to fully move past before my wedding next year. I don't want to enter into marriage with this secret. I'm ready to claim my abuse and speak against it. I am ready to move forward and continue proving to myself that I am more than my past, I am more than my abuse. I'm not a victim... I'm a living breathing survivor.

Wish me luck 💙