today sucks

after 9 years of not having a family doctor and taking care of myself the last 7 years I've been in a battle to alot of pain and headaches. today I got my results from my mri and I am very sad to say that I have to completely put my ttc on hold. I have high pressure in the brain or as others may know it as ICP? Doctor told me to look up high pressure in the brain. wants me to be aware what I have to educate myself. I'm pretty much freaking out as I have finally an answer. now I just want it fixed 😭 but I wanted a baby. 🤕