So I dont even know where to begin I need all the advice and help I can get. I am lost. so I am 15 weeks and a couple days. I went to a specialist on Tuesday because they thought my baby wasnt developing in some areas, which is scary. come to find out he's not. he has no csp in his brain to let them know how far along it has developed. his posterior fossa did not form because he has fluid in his brain pushing it forward. there is no corpus callosum. he has a cystic hygroma. which the fluid is just filling up the top half of his body because it has nowhere else to go. he has frontal bossing. his ribs are short and curved. fingers are short and kinda pointed instead of rounded at the top. his arms are onoh measuring 13 weeks. hos legs are short and he's missing the second bone on the bottom half of his legs he only has one bone there. his toes are short and stubby. he has 12 toes. he has a cord hernia. his umbilical cord only has one arterie instead of 2 like normal. his kidneys has fluid around them and they don't even know if they are working......... I am getting a amniosentesis done next Tuesday. but my doctor said I can either keep him or terminate him. I don't know what to do. this is my forst pregnancy I dont want to lose my baby. but its also no life for him if he's gonna have a lot of learning problems and can't walk, stuff lime that. so please I am begging people dont just like this. I really need some advice or if someone is going through the same thing. I really need help. we found all this out on Halloween and we have to Christmas to make a decision so if we dont keep him I have to lose my baby on Christmas.

UPDATE!!!!!- so after all of this we have gotten a amniosentesis done. and everyrhing they could possibly test for came back normal genetic and chromosomal. so they cant explain anything. I am now 22 weeks 5 days. he has been moving and the kicks have gotten stronger from the beginning. when I was 20 weeks his arms were measuring 5 weeks behind. and they could finally see the csp marker in the front of his brain. he only has a extra toe and finger on his right had and foot. hos lefts are normal. and the bone missing in his legs are his fibia bones. they are missing in both legs. the weirdest thing is they cant see his boy parts. there is absolutely nothing there. I dont know if the tests could be wrong. and hes a girl. but ive had 2 blood tests and the amniosentesis all come back boy. but me and my SO has decided that we are going to keep this baby. we feel if he's gonna go then I would like it to happen naturally. we have a fetal echo coming up soon to see if his heart is also messed up too. his heart rate is 140. my doctor says that's a healthy rate but another doctor said he couldnt tell by looking at his heart if something formed fully or not. but those of you that are praying thank you and please keep praying.