INSECURE

I feel like such a terrible gf. I'm constantly freaking out on my bf. So lastnight he got called in to work overnight 11-7:30am but I texted him a cute GN text right before 11 NO TEXT BACK so my mind starts rushing I thought he was out w another female so I freak out at him and he gets really upset saying "I'm trying to work to take care of us and I don't need this extra stress" made me feel bad. Then I had went through his phone for no reason seen a contact under "babygirl" that he was face timing constantly... so I freaked out again so he calls the number ITS HIS BABY SISTER and again he's like "GIRL. you gotta chill out please you've been acting crazy" LOL I FEEL LIKE SHIT I FEEL STUPID 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️ he's really never did anything to deceive my trust. I guess my ex made it hard for me to trust but that's not his fault how do I relearn how to trust??????