pregnancy relationship rant

I hate that everything I do with my partner is my first time and for him he's done things plenty of times with multiple people. I wish I would have known this while we were still friends so I wouldn't be hurting as much as I do now. I'm pregnant with my first baby and he already has an 8 year old daughter with another woman, I just found out he also got another girl pregnant to, but he went with her to abort it because it was in the felapen tube or however you spell it. I know I'm prob just exagerating. I just want it to be special for us I want to connect with him in ways we've never connected with anyone else and I hate knowing he was connected with other woman in his past.