I discovered I was pregnant 8/15/17 followed by ER confirming my pregnancy 8/16/17. I got my first ultrasound 8/30/17 to confirm how far I was , I was supposed to be 6w4d but was 5w4d and to our surprise they found not one but two heart beats! Just flickering away at 105 bpm. I had another ultrasound at 8 weeks because at 6 weeks I began spotting and this being my second pregnancy I grew scared because I had never experienced this with my first. When I got my ultrasound nothing was found to be alarming and both babies were growing perfectly. I didn’t get another ultrasound till 10/10/17 at 11w3d , my husband and I were so excited to see the twins and how much they grew. I knew something was wrong when I noticed my supposed to be bouncing babies were still. I had a healthy pregnancy before and knew what to expect. I ignored it all though and watched the monitor. The tech waited till the end of the ultrasound to check for the heart beats and all you heard was silence. Each baby. She ended my ultrasound and printed off a picture of Baby A and Baby B then the words “I’m so sorry but your babies have no heart beat I have to grab your doctor” left her mouth. We both broke down right then and there. I had options discussed but I demanded a second opinion and I fortunately that confirmed we lost our twins. One at 11 weeks exactly and one at 11w1d , we never knew the gender of these beautiful babies. I had a missed miscarriage where my body didn’t identify the loss and continued carrying the pregnancy. I had a D&C; the next day. My babies are in heaven with all the other angels that were too precious for earth. I never thought this would happen to me. It’s been 3 weeks and I’m better emotionally but the grieving will never go away. I’m the mother to three children , one on earth and two with god. Here is the last images of my angels ! Looking for someone to talk to about my loss , it’s so hard going from preparing for two babies to now nothing. I’ll never know them , never watch them grow , never celebrate holidays or birthdays , never kiss or hold them. I can’t even name them , I dont know their gender. I wasn’t allowed to hold or see them or take any remains home and all I have are images of my babies.