just need to vent

this year has been a roller coaster...

left my ex husband in January due to such bad abuse to me and my oldest (not his). my youngest was diagnosed with autism. found out I got pregnant on my IUD with my now boyfriend and we miscarried. I'm working 3 jobs and still never seem to have enough money to get by. I barely made rent this month. Im literally washing my kids clothes in our kitchen sink because I can't afford to take them to the laundry mat. I have no idea how I'm even going to be able to buy them a Christmas gift this year. I feel like a failure of a mother to them. but I'm trying my best to keep it together for them.

sorry for the long post just needed to vent