Warning: Still born picture. Rainbow baby is a...koo

After losing my son to placental abruption at 36 weeks last September, I was afraid to have another boy, but had a feeling it was a girl. I was so sure, but low and behold, it's another baby boy. Don't get me wrong, I am so excited. but man am I scared. I keep calling him his brothers name, and I break down crying. I need advice. I love my boys, but it brings up emotions that break my heart. This is his bubby:

this is him:

I love my babies so much. UPDATE: Baby boy is doing great and is developing nicely. 20 weeks and 3 days now.

He definitely looks like his daddy. . Update

my little guy is spitting image of me and looks just like his big bubby. just 5 more weeks until he can get here. We're doing a C-section