my skin is so bad it makes me want to hide

I am so embarrassed of my skin it has become so bad lately, I think it might be due to my new birth control. but it makes me want to hide and I actually have been . I go to classes for my doctorate like 1 minute early and hope that my friends don't look at me to have a conversation bc I don't want them to see my skin. And today I have a more interactive class where you have to work in groups so no hiding today. what makes it worse is that my friends always used to say I have porcelain skin so now I feel like they're thinking wtf happened there she is not pretty anymore. I have tried so many different things to clear it up but I am just gonna quit all products cold turkey because I feel all the chemicals are stripping my skin. Idk what to do I can't wait for this day to be over so I can take off all this makeup and try and cure my skin :'(.