Support, Advice, Anything?!

So, I'm 39 weeks today (woo-hoo)!

Yesterday, I had consistent contractions from 3:00 to 7:30, that became more frequent and more painful. In talking with my doctor, we made the decision that I would go to the hospital. Being my first pregnancy, I didn't know how quickly I would progress, my mom had me in 4 hours of labor - I wanted to play safe, rather than sorry!

On the ride to the hospital, my contractions started slowing down, but were still happening. I got to the hospital, they dipped my urine, hooked me up to machines, and I thought, "Holy shit, this is happening!".

Upon checking my cervix, I was 50% effaced and about 1cm dilated. We were all hoping for more, but ya gotta start somewhere right? So, I began pacing, sitting on the exercise ball, squatting and all kinds of other mostly uncomfortable positions, just hoping to speed up the process! 2 hours later - No progression. They sent me home.😔

Today, I feel nauseous. I'm having diarrhea bowel movements non-stop. And I just feel genuinely uncomfortable. I'm still having stomach tightness and contraction-like pains... But it's not as consistent as last night, nowhere near as painful. I'm exhausted.

Could this be the beginning of labor? What did you mom's feel like in your days before labor?

Just feeling really upset, angry, discouraged, and like I failed. I thought the moment I had been waiting for, for months had finally come... And then nothing.😔