I’ve had endo for about 7 yrs now. My sweet man and I have been trying for over a year now with no luck. So I started a couple months ago going to my dr for help. Needless to say it’s gut wrenching. I no longer have the excitement for the possibilities of what could be, just fear of what won’t.

Today was yet another dr appt with no answers. Now I know things don’t happen over night but it’s extremely hard hearing your dr tell you that you and your husband are an infertile couple. That short sentence today turned my whole outlook around. I feel as if I’ve been stripped of my feminism. I feel like a horrible wife for not being able to give my husband one of life’s most precious joys. Today I started to hate a part of myself. I know that those words might seem so minimal but to actually hear them is another story. There are no words to describe the pain that I’m feeling and processing it is even harder. So tonight I’m going to live in my feelings and cry myself to sleep in hopes of a better outlook tomorrow.