I’ve known my boyfriend since February, we met when he started at work. He’s in sales & marketing and I’m in the logistics department. I had just came out of the messiest relationship of my entire existence and my current bf found me at a bad state. But he was there regardless and was an awesome friend to me. Truly a breath of fresh air in my life

While we were getting to know each other he mentioned that he had a son. He mentioned him and his sons mom had broken up for about 2 years and he hates her guts but he has to deal with her and civil for the child’s sake.

We’ve been together for 5 months and I just can’t get used to the fact that he has a child with someone. I hate the fact that he has to communicate with her, I hate the fact that he shares something so special with someone. I have no relationship with his son because I haven’t met him yet, I don’t know when I’ll be ready to meet him. I’m scared actually, of what? I don’t know. But I’m scared to meet his son. But I’m sad of the fact that I’ll never experience the “first child” feeling with him if ever we get there. I feel that since he loves his son, a small part of him still loves the mother. He assured me he’d never go back to her and he’s committed to me but I feel sad/angry when he talks about his son or mentions that he was speaking to his mom about visiting hours.

Does this make me a bad person that I feel like this? I want to change. I love this man