Hi ladies. I’m 26 and after this whole #metoo movement of women stepping out and saying if they’ve been assaulted, or harassed, some coming out saying they were raped brought me back to a situation where I guess I’ve pushed into the back of my memory bank because who really forgets something like this?! I guess what I’m asking is whether you ladies consider this being raped.

About 5 or 6 years ago I was single and was friendly with a few guys, flirting and such. This one guy who I knew from high school needed a date to his job’s Christmas party. (Really just dinner at a restaurant) I went there and we drank some before we got to the restaurant so we were feeling good. Went to the dinner, he enjoyed showing me off but I made it clear I wasn’t dating him, that we were going as friends. Long story short as we left we went back to someone’s house where everyone left their cars and I was a little tipsy, not drunk.. he made a move on my thigh in the car and I denied. I had the seat leaned back because I was tired and he thought that was his opportunity to get on top of me. I remember I made it clear I wasn’t trying to have sex. I don’t exactly remember whether I said stop or no but I know I said one or the other.. He ripped my tights, pulled up my skirt and he definitely penetrated. And at that point I made it clear I was upset and I had to go home. Haven’t talked to him since then.

I’m in a relationship now (VERY VERY HAPPY in my relationship) but after I started to see so many people speaking out with that hashtag #MeToo It came to mind that I’ve actually been a victim too.. I’m not looking for sympathy, I’ve never told a soul about this. I’m just at the point I had to tell someone.

What sticks out in my mind the most is my ripped tights. He ripped my fucking tights.