Just need someone to listen

I am 16 years old and I am currently still living at home with my mom and dad. To sum the main problem up, my dad has extreme angers issues and he takes it all out on my mom and I. He is emotionally and verbally abusive for me. I look at other people’s dads, and I feel so empty. My dad has a shop, and he doesn’t come home until late at night so I never hardly seem him because it’s (sooooooo) important. The one night he can come home and make time for family is tonight since my nieces and nephew are over. He just began yelling at me for doing absolutely nothing. I get tired of him always being mean and yelling at me so I walked off to their bedroom and locked the door and began to cry in the bathroom. He screamed at me to unlock the door or else he would sell my car. Then he proceeded to push me back to my room and began yelling at me when I do absolutely nothing. My mom began to take my side because he was yelling at me for pointless stuff. Then he began to yell at her for taking my side but she told him I never do anything and all he ever does is yell at us. Towards the end of him yelling at me he said “If you died tonight I wouldn’t regret any way I’ve treated you or said” i told him i hope i do and he said “maybe you will” I love my dad but I am so tired of feeling worthless all the time. I can’t remember the last time he hasn’t yelled at me or showed me any decent fatherly love. I know my mom has thought about leaving him but she can’t seem to pull herself to it. I want both my parents in my life. I know my mom and I deserve better. I have had so many suicidal thoughts because i’m tired of feeling this way. The only great male figure I’ve ever had is my boyfriend who loves me unconditionally. I have prayed about my dad. I just want everything to be normal and how other dads are. i know this isn’t normal. someone please reach out to me. i’ve already tried talking to him about it but he told me i am always the problem and that if i have a problem between us then it’s my fault. i just wish he would change perspectives and see how it feels but if i try to tell him how i feel i am “disrespectful” . i just wanted to get this off of my chest. i’m tired of feeling this way and crying all the time. i already have anxiety and now i dont know what to think anymore please help me