Relationships?? Whaa??

Most of the time I don't acknowledge boys, but sometimes I want the attention of a boy. Not just the attention though, I also want that connection, to share my mind with someone, to relate to someone, or not relate and instead be offered a different perspective. I want a deep connection with someone. The more I talk about this, the more it sounds like I really just want a best friend, not a boyfriend. I haven't seriously dated since Freshman year, I am now a Junior in Highschool.