talk me out of testing

Last month of ttc I spotted very very lightly on and off from 3dpo until 10dpo when what I think was af started. It was light for me and was mostly clots. Lasted four days, flow was the same strength the first three days, except day two had the most clots. Day four was a heavier spotting. Thought I was out. But I've been having symptoms. Mild cramping, nausea, I threw up a few times which is unlike me I barely do that when I'm sick let alone the rest of the time, fatigue, headaches, breast soreness and they may be a bit darker but there is definitely more veins showing. I tested twice since the maybe af and the first was a vfl and the other I think was negative a week after the first. May have taken the test wrong I guess. New tests and they didn't come with directions. I cried the other day bc I was dreaming about standing in a snowfall back in the states and it was so pretty. I can eat something one day and it tastes fine and the very next day I have to chug it down bc it doesn't taste the same. Yesterday I literally slept all day. I was supposed to ovulate this week if that was af, but my cervix has remained high and closed ever since I ovulated in Oct and I've had more cm this month than I've ever had. I really hate wasting tests so someone talk me down please!