broken leg

On Sunday I was walking down our kitchen stairs to get our baby girl a bottle. This was around 4am when I slipped on the stairs and landed on my left leg. I was holding baby girl when I fell. She was safe thank god but when I looked down my leg looked like it was twisted around. I knew at that moment I had broken my leg. I was home alone and my phone was upstairs. I moved leg and felt my ankle pop back into place. I tried to crawl up the stairs to get my phone but knew that I couldn't crawl and carry my baby at the same time. I opened the window and screamed as loud as I could for help. No one acknowledged that they heard me. We have Google Home in our Kitchen and thank god it was on because sometimes my husband turns it off. You can't call 911 through it but I was able to and call my mom and she called the police and my husband. It felt like hours went by before help came but it eventually did. At the hospital I was told that I broke my tibia in 2 places and would need surgery. I'm still in the hospital recovering from the surgery and will be non-weightbearing for at least 6 weeks. I will be staying with my mom for that time. My baby girl will stay with my sister. My sister will bring the baby over to visit daily. I've decided to stop pumping because I just can't do it after all of this. I have PPD and was just feeling like my old self again then this happened. I know I need to be thankful that my daughter didn't get hurt and I am. I just feel so helpless and down. I can't hold my baby girl a lot because I'm so drugged I'm scared I'm going to drop her. I just can't believe this happened. I'm so sad stopping pumping too but I know I need to for my mental health.