Embarrassed 🤦🏽‍♀️

Me and my ex were hooking up and he tried to do anal and tried to use lotion as lube and it was hurting and i told him to stop but he kept going a few pumps when he pulled out he realized there was shit on the condom i was so embarrassed i had no idea how it even happened i ended up bleeding from my asshole don’t know if the shit and the bleeding is normal ( was also my first time doing anal )