Trying to hard?

So for the first time today I actually cried when I got my period. Had my coil out in January and thought getting pregnant would be easy peasy... silly me ey?? I guess you spend most of your time trying so hard not to get pregnant that when you actually decide you want a baby then you think all it will take is a rumble underneath the sheets and you’ve done it... wrong again. Lots of people have told me stop thinking about it and it will happen. My partner already has a daughter so he’s pretty chilled about the whole thing too. I’m going to try my best to stop worrying, even though in the back of my mind I’ve already diagnosed myself as being infertile. I literally think about getting pregnant everyday, or worry about not getting ever getting pregnant, I even tell myself to stop thinking about it whilst thinking about it...I can’t really remember what other things used to occupy my big head. It can’t be healthy. It even feels like everyone around me is getting pregnant, must of not noticed before. Thinking of joining the gym and trying to obsess about getting fit and healthy, book a good holiday, if I manage to obsess about the gym as much as I do about getting pregnant I sure will have one hot bikini body!! I’m 27 and I guess in the grand scheme of things it hasn’t been that long, and there are plenty of options out there. I just wish I could just stop trying to hard, then maybe who knows what will happen. X