Negative test(s) but??????????

So here for about the past 4 months I have been a little (a lot) stressed. I have had a period but it’s weird to me. I honestly have never paid that much attention until now so it could just be me? I get a period every month at the right time & I experience spotting in the beginning & end (normal). However, I read on here & on google 🙄 that some women experience bleeding during their pregnancies and hcg just doesn’t show on tests. I don’t have a belly (I would be like 4-5 months) but I read about cryptic pregnancies and women just not showing. (I read way too much on the damn app) I’ve taken plenty of tests, all negative but I just can’t get the thought that I could be pregnant :( any one have any relief???? And when I ovulate (I’m assuming) it has blood? Not much but I notice. Is that normal??? It just started happening...