help? I don't trust myself..

every time I look at this I think I see something, but the other half of me knows I'm full of 💩 lol I took this when I was 7dpo I start my period I'm the 11th or 12th I can't remember which day exactly. if I don't get it this go around then I won't be trying again for a while. the negative tests have me really depressed lately.