Feeling heartbroken.. am I being stupid?

Ok... so I got married in October this year.. my husband and I already have a 2 year old daughter together (she’s nearly 3..)

He’s already far from the romantic type as it is, and I’ve accepted this because I love him more than anything! He’s truly the best dad I could’ve wished for for any of my children!

.. but anyway... our honeymoon... was just crap! They’d booked us into the wrong hotel, the hotel we stayed in was closing down for end of season, so we weren’t able to do much anyway.. but it just felt naff and restricted trying to entertain our daughter who has very little to do in a place supposedly catered for young children...

He said during that week that we would book a weekend away or something when we come home for just the two of us.. adding in.. we’d love to have another baby...

I’ve waited it out thinking, I don’t want to be pushy as we’ve just spent a lot on the wedding, now Christmas is around the corner too it’s just quite a bit of spending we just don’t need.

Since then however, he feels distant. We still have a good laugh, but only when we have our daughter with us. He gets frustrated with me when I mention any sign of “us time”. But again I feel like it’s just me pushing.

So tonight, I sat down with him and spoke about how I’ve felt.. he then told me, he really doesn’t care if we don’t have time for us anymore. We have a child and that comes first.. (he was looking at family breaks away and I felt a bit sad that he didn’t think for us too.)

He says he doesn’t want to try for a baby, after saying he did. Doesn’t think I’m in the right frame of mind for another as I’m always so “tired” with the kid we already have. I’d love to meet any Mum who tells me she doesn’t feel tired after a day with a toddler and still goes to work of an evening and all weekend to make ends meet..

I completely understand the financial strain another child can bring. But being told he just doesn’t care about time together hurt like hell. I don’t know if I’m just being sensitive and stupid about this or if anyone else has felt the same?

Guess I should let things pan out the way they’re supposed to. Just wished he’d get excited about something in our future. (He wasn’t even excited about the wedding until the day arrived..) ...

help..