Trying to stay strong...

I'm in an abusive relationship and I have an appointment with a domestic violence counselor on Wednesday...when my boyfriend plays the "affection" card it makes it so hard. I'm trying to see it for what it is and know it's all part of the game he plays and part of the control but its hard. He knows how to hook me in he knows how to manipulate me. But I need to stay strong for my children.

I should mention I've been with him for 3 years, he is only sweet when he needs to pull me back in. He feeds on my hope like a parasite. My advantage is he doesn't know that I know this. He thinks I'm still unaware.