Win or Loss??

I'm feeling very conflicted. I'm pretty sure AF has shown up or about to show up. I thought for sure my husband and I had a really good chance of being pregnant (we've been TTC for almost 3 years) since I ended my first period in months that came naturally in November. I've been getting nothing but BFN and that's fine,I expected tha honestly. but I also feel really excited to be getting AF again. I haven't had consecutive periods since being on Metformin over a year ago. I just really don't know how to feel. Super sad that we don't have a BFP but, excited all the same for AF. 🤷‍♀️