Feeling lost

*Kind of lengthy*

I broke up with my boyfriend/only friend like two months ago because he preferred to “hustle” with his friends rather than talking to me. I’ve had difficulty grasping everything. since I had to drop a class and my aunt died. This weekend I went to Houston for a wedding and have been reminiscing about things. The only thing that hurts me is that I would’ve had a 2 year old if I hadn’t had a miscarriage and he’s never addressed his pain or compassion for me💔 After it happened I was depressed and needed space and he didn’t have a problem with it. Now I am a day away from taking finals for college and all I can think about is the way we left off😭 I’ve decided it’s for the best, but we’ve had so many bad things happen yet we still overcame them. I just need someone to talk to. I might go to counseling after school tomorrow but I need some comments before