I had hoped that when I would write the words I’m pregnant here, I’d be happy about it. But it’s far from happy. Long story short, I cheated on my girlfriend of six years and I’m pregnant now. I hate myself. I have no reason as to why I cheated expect I’m selfish and stupid. I fucked up completely and I fully expect her to leave me and never talk to me again. I had told her after I cheated what I had done, but now there’s going to be even more of a reminder.

I honestly thought that positive was a joke, a sick way the universe was kicking my ass. But no, there’s a baby in my womb. So now, the only thing I have left to do is sit her down, tell her I am in fact carrying this guys child, probably pack my belongings and leave our house, get in contact with the father, let him know what’s happening, then set up an prenatal appointment to see if my baby is healthy. I brought this on myself and now I have to woman up and face this change coming to my life.

I’m not going to beg her to stay with me, I’m not asking for anyone to by sympathetic. I post this as a warning for others. I messed up a great relationship because I was selfish, and I made a selfish decision. Don’t be me. If you’re not happy, leave. And if you aren’t prepared to have a child, use a condom. I counted on the fact that drs told me and my girlfriend that when we did start trying to conceive, I’d probably have to go through rounds of

<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>

because of a genetic disorder. I was stupid. I’ve always wanted to be a mom, and married to the woman of my dreams. But because of my actions, I’m getting that dream, just not how I wanted it.