4 Years Together ...

My family . It hurts I’ve gutted my man and made him loose he’s mind towards me , when I caught him talking to other girls behind my back he still didn’t care when I sit down and talked to him about it , so I left this was last year , when I left 2 weeks later on I was already gonna move on I wanted someone to love me by who I was and treated me right , right when I was gonna move on he came back begging , this other guy was already making me happy but instead I used him to to hurt my husband as revenge and more after that cheated on him about 3-4 times that’s when I knew that’s it I’m gonna loose someone I really love . After all that he became the man that treated me like shit again . He left me talked to he’s ex which she’s now in jail for prostitution! , he never slept with her he just wanted to hurt me by using her . But now a friend from work took me home and he got mad called me a hoe a bitch and more I’ve been so depressed stressed that idk if I’m pregnant but like I don’t want too now scared to be with 2 children And told me either way if I’m DNA test I’ll never cheat on him it was just revenge . Know my husband since I was 12 .... and now I still have he’s stuff on my phone and could see he likes other girls pic or probably talking to them it hurts . I need advice 😔