I don't want to sound like I'm seeking attention. I know that "all shapes are beautiful" but it doesn't change what i see in the mirror. I've hated my body for my whole life. My father used to say he was embarrassed to be seen in public with me because of how I look. He told me I will only date ugly loser men because the the other "barbie" girls were snatching up the hot guys. I've considered so many plastic surgery operations centered around my waist, breasts, and labia. I can't seem to separate my self worth from my appearance. I cry when I look in the mirror, i can't enjoy sex...

I work out every day for 2-3 hours. I am at my lowest weight of 101 pounds. My bmi says I'm underweight. I know that it's unhealthy but I literally cannot stop.