I hate waiting 😒😡

AF is supposed to come on the 20th but my body feels so weird. Me and my OH are trying for a boy but will be blessed with whatever we get but the waiting of not knowing has me on edge. I have been really tired lately, wanting things I usually don't eat, EWCM heavily, lower back pains, lower abdominal pain, and so much more. I don't want to get too excited as I have tested twice and both BFN 😢 but it was also too early I just took them because we'll I WANT TO KNOW. I will be testing again tomorrow morning hopefully we see two lines it not we will test once more sunday before AF is expected to come Wednesday. Baby dust please!! Baby dust and best wishes to everyone TTC 💚