I'm literally having a break down right now. I'm someone that needs to be able to control things or I become extremely anxious. This dam diagnosis is getting to me SO bad and it's only been two weeks on the diet. I'm tired of worrying over everything I eat I'm sick of pricking my finger and anxiously awaiting the results. I sick of worrying for my daughter. I'm scared this won't go away after I deliver. I want my life back. I'm upset that no matter what I do my fasting # is always border line and that all this week it's been 95-97 when they want it below 94 I'll be put on meds very soon I'm sure. I'm scared of how the meds will make me feel. I'm scared they will cause me to have low blood sugar attack because it's so border line to begin with. I'm afraid of feeling sick when I'm alone with my 1 year old son and no one to help me. I can't even tell my family about this because my dad will blame me for it and that will make me feel worse so I'm scared for the holidays how will I get threw them hiding this ? 😪 I'm just having a very bad day lady's. My pregnancy was speeding by and now it's like going in slow motion. Feb 23 pls hurry up.