depressed 39 weeks 6 days...

so 40 weeks tomorrow...yesterday was checked and dialated to a 2.5 and 50 percent effaced..I was so sure he would be here by now...I have a 8 and 10 year old and never made it past 38 weeks 6 days...I've tried a lot to get labor going and was just excited to get stuff going and have a break. I'm a graduate student completing my masters and finished my semester last weekend but I start a new semester January 13th regardless of when baby comes..with that I'm also interning 15 hours a week and working fulltime..I feel like I'm wasting my bonding time that I get with baby still being pregnant and wasting my recovery time to even get back to feeling normal...I was so sure he would be here last week based on my two pregnancys and every one thinking I would go early..I was so excited to have 4 weeks of just my kids and new baby and not feel chaos. now I'm just depressed because I won't be induced until the 28th and that cuts my recovery and uninterrupted bonding time to 2.5 weeks...I can not go back to work but I don't have a choice with the other stuff I need to graduate in June..so feeling so down and everyday just feels worse...