Getting in my Head A lot

I’m just taking this moment to vent.

So I just had a pretty bad moment. I was getting all in my head about something that this guy that I’m seeing MIGHT be doing (which he probably isn’t). Then I got in my head about another situation and it really drove me up the wall. I do this a lot mainly because I have trust issues. So I took a smoke break and drunk some beer. But I also realize that God is using these moments to make me stronger. He is teaching me to trust the REALITY of certain situations. If there isn’t concrete evidence then there’s no reason to get worked up about it. It’s just really hard sometimes because I don’t act on my feelings so I can only mind fuck myself into believing something that isn’t true.