TTC after the loss of my 4 day old daughter

Please help me!!

Long story short, I’m almost 8 weeks PP. I lost my daughter to meningitis when she was 4 days old. All I want in life is to be a mama, I am a mama, but my baby girl is not here physically with me. So anyways, assuming the bleeding I had a week and a half ago was a period and not just PP spotting, I should be ovulating here soon. I know that OPKs are read differently than HCG tests. The test line must be as dark or darker than the control line. But I need help! The first test was taken on CD 13 or 14. All the tests I have taken have 2 lines as you can see, the last 2 seemingly darker than the rest. Do you think I’m getting close to ovulation or no? Is it normal to ALWAYS get 2 lines on OPKs? I’m so lost! 😫

My little love, Neveya Ann 💕