One last try...

So I just need to put it out there..... my husband and I are giving it one last try TTC B2 and I’m absolutely scared shitless. We have been trying on and off now for 2 years, but it wasn’t happening then my husband was re battling his depression, we came out of that and tried again, to know success, then he was on some medication that didn’t not advise TTC while on it....and now my best friend who just so happens to be married to my husband brother is pregnant with B2 and although super happy and excited for them, I can’t help but feel a little lost that it’s not me, then other best friend tells me she is pregnant with her 1st also super exciting but again, why not me? My husband doesn’t like to see me upset so I put on a brave face.... but I feel like time is running out. We have agreed to try one last time and if no success that will be a bitter pill for me to swallow think. I’m hoping someone is looking out for me. Xx