I’m currently having another miscarriage!?!?u

Are you kidding me? It’s been 4 years of trying and 2 previous miscarriages. We had an IUI on December 1 and according to my last cycle we finally carried a baby just past 6 weeks... well Friday I started spotting... not a huge deal but you can imagine our concern. Saturday came and heavy bleeding and clotting arrived. No tissue and no cramps so there was still hope right. Then 3am New Year’s eve our anniversary I started having really bad cramps I was miserable and terrified, not again. Then 10ish I saw tissue about the size of a quarter. Ugh! Then more tissue and cramps worse than I’ve ever had even with my endometriosis. Heating pad and Tylenol to get me through. Doctor wants me in on Tuesday to check and confirm. Why can’t I carry a baby? what’s wrong with me? Why do I suck? I’m so over this and I know that God totally has plans for us so I’m not mad I’m just so confused.

Update: it’s gone. Dr confirmed this morning. She is checking my HCG and progesterone levels compared to last Thursday’s levels. Hopefully we can find something out that can help in the future but she’s confident that it’s probably something that happened during cell division. I didn’t keep the tissues but next time they will want me to. She collected some tissue today but she doesn’t think they will be able to tell from what was left. She’s sure my body knows what to do so the next time will work 🤞🏻🙏🏻. Still having the cramps and apparently they’re basically labor pains. If that’s right I’m totally ready for it lol.