Ranting

I had the worst New Years. My best friend (whom I haven’t seen in a year due to about an hour distance apart) was going to come see my new house and visit with me over New Years weekend. I was so excited to see her! Well, at about 6:30pm yesterday, I realized she wasn’t coming. I texted her, called, everything. She never replied, she could have simply said, hey I can’t make it, or it’s too far of a drive, and I could have understood.

So my New Years drinking started at approximately 7pm. So of course while feeling sorry for myself, everything else that is wrong in my life popped into my brain.

Have been trying to conceive with my SO for about 10 months now, so while being emotionally drunk, I was even more emotional and cried because I feel like there’s something wrong with my body.

I work as a 911 operator and 98% of my coworkers are about 20-35 years older than I am. They treat me like I’m incompetent, and they make me feel like I’m too young and “inexperienced “ to have this type of job.

My boyfriend and I have been engaged since April. We’ve recently been planning and everything, and we’ve come to realize that we will not be able to financially pay for a big, fancy wedding. We have been having financial issues already, and it just sucks.

Everything just sucked, and that’s how I spent my New Years.

How did you ladies spend yours?