Situation...

Okay so firstly, i’m 15, i’m a virgin and i am single. I have a friend, he is male, he is 17 and he is not a virgin. I’ve told him that i’m a virgin and he asked me if i was waiting till i’m 16 (next month) to do it and i said no, i’m waiting for the right person. My friends who have done it have told me there’s no such thing as “the right one”, obviously i wouldn’t know. He then went on to say he would happily take my virginity because we’re good friends and we’ve kissed and things before.

I have 2 BIG problems; 1. i’m scared as fuck, i have no idea what to do, how it’s going to feel and i don’t want to mess up our friendship etc. 2. HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND WHO IS MY FRIEND AND SHE SAID ITS PERFECTLY FINE. They’re in an open relationship...personally i really dislike the fact that im involved in their relationship because i’m friends with both of them (before they were in the relationship). Ive also told them how i feel about the whole thing and they said it’s fine and that the girl doesnt mind, she’ll let him take my virginity and whatever, but i still feel dodgy.

Should I do it? I trust him..a lot but I still will feel bad.

Ah also, I am in fact looking for a bf and someone to show me love and affection but idk, this boy makes me feel something that I’ve never felt before with a boy. It’s unclear what these feelings are but I want to find my own man. I don’t want to embarrass myself however when the time comes for us to have sex.

I DESPERATELY NEED HELP!!!