Confused

So me & my kids father have been broken up for about 3 months now & im not understanding how this thing is working out because we still talk everyday. He bought me Christmas gifts. He texts me every morning before work, etc. Now our children are deceased so we aren't holding on for them. But when I was pregnant, I found out he was cheating, forgave him & we moved on with life. And I've been with him for 3 years. So we spent New Year's Day together & we had sex but I saw on New Year's eve the girl that he was cheating with posted a status about changing her last name soon. And it made me think she was talking Whitt with him because his bestfriend, sister, & cousin commented. Of course I asked him about it & he said its not about him. But of course I don't believe that either. So yesterday morning he txtd me & said that we needed to talk. I asked about what. He said a lot. And I called to see what he needed to talk about. He said we would talk face to face. And he keeps brushing it off saying we will talk about it he next day. I'm thinking he wants to finally tell me the truth about him & the girl. And yes I do have a lot of feelings for him. I'm just so nervous about hearing what he has to tell me. I kind of want to just end things completely & not even talk to him as a friend but I just don't know how. And then I don't know what I want to do. I wonder what he has to tell me that he can't tell me over the phone. 😩