At such a low point

I feel like maybe I’m not meant to be a mom. My heart aches as I write this. It’s almost like my sex drive is completely diminished. My husband is no longer sexually attracted because of the pressure of a baby and at the same time, what turns him on..I am unable to provide. He desires a woman who isn’t a little overweight, who has a nice butt and feet that turn him on. I pray things change, I feel like I’m dying inside and I have nothing else left in me except for the promise that God will provide but I don’t feel like it’s true right now.