just kind of a story? idk..

So I got pregnant at 16 he was 19 we took the test together and stuff hit the fan after words we were happy and scared but didn't know for sure sense was so faint I brushed it off. But then my legal guardian got involved and thought I was so had me tested again. Turns out I'm pregnant . Okay she split us up said he ever came by and told him I wasn't. she sent me off try get me have a abortion.. i didn't have a abortion he knows cause we didn't break up but when I left town he cheated so I left due to fact he cheated twice when finding out. he has bi polar disorder ( I explain why that's in here in a min)but we would meet up and he told me how he loved me and wanted kiss and I couldn't look at him or kiss him so he hit above my head cause he got mad. so I took off and came back home. when I realized my worth I left for good...and he commented on my stuff I'm a "whore", " give him the kid", "miss carry" etc.

Now he's message me asking if its really his, gendered the baby already to a "he" and don't want child support. we are now 17 , 20 I told him I do not know what the baby is and to not gender the baby just yet. An I don't need his help nor child support. The baby indeed his and thanked him for trying. I honestly grown so much as a person. But I'm just afriad when may comes I won't be a good mom : ( and I don't want him have any rights I know my baby should have a father but shouldn't be one who smokes pot(get stupid high), probably won't be able handle a baby who cry all the time.. and be in and out their life..