I just can’t even believe I am typing this.

Honestly my SO talks down to me and sometimes is so belittling to my eldest child from a previous. When he’s mean and says rude things to me I hate him.

When he is sweet and shows he cares about me I love him more than anything.

I’m a stay home mom taking care of the children which I am beyond greatdul for but I feel it’s now time to maybe go get a job to have my own because this new theme he stArted is when he’s mad or angry he says “ I’m done with you”

When is going to be that day that he really means it and throws me to the curb with nothing.

When’s enough really enough?

When’s the day that he tells me he’s done with me and I tell him to fuck off?

When is the day that I realize I deserve to be hugged and kissed?

When’s the day I will be told I’m beautiful by him?

When’s the day I will ever hear him say “I love you”

My hearts in shambles and we have been together for a while through so much. He is a hard worker who makes great money I’m a stay at home mom with nothing but love for my children . But when am I going to flipping realiE that’s not enough?