Miscarriage, Stress,FAITH

I Had My First Miscarriage At 15 đŸ€§. I Lost My Baby Due To Me Hiding That I Was Pregnant And Me Trying To Slack On Eating. I Fought My First 2Weeks Of Me Not Knowing I was pregnant. But Girrrrl When I Found Out I Was Pregnant .i Ran Every morning Skipped Lunch AND PLAYED BASKETBALL Because I Was 15. running Track At School. 3.0 GPA . Smoked Weed Anddd Had 2 Jobs ( One Was Working The Block Selling Dope & The Other Was At Chic-Fil-A I Knew I Couldn’t Raise this kid . All I thought about was me . Because I’m 19 Been With My FiancĂ© 8 Years . We Have Been Going Back And Forth Buying Ovulation Test And Hormone Meds. Sperm Lubes And All Other Type Of Things I find online that can be use full ( TIPS ARE WELCOMED. I Loose Faith Sometimes. But He Keeps Me Going. I’ve Stopped Working For A Couple Months While We Are In The Mist Of All This. My Love Has Even Picked Up A Second Shift So We Could Make Ends Meet Without Asking For Help. < WE HAVE SHADY PEOPLE IN OUR FAMILY > For Me To Relax And Kick Back Get Used To Being At Home And Not Always On The Move. I Kinda Liked It But I Started Gettin Lonely ( My Sisters Stay Either 56 Miles Away , Or Always With Her Man Traveling ). I Haven’t Told My Parents That We Are Trying To Conceive Again. Because Last Past 6 Or 8 Months My Moma Has Been Telling Me Stories About How She Isn’t Ready To Be A Grandmother đŸ€·đŸ»â€â™€ïž And How After Nusing School I Won’t Have Time She Really Don’t Understand ( Sounds Personal RIGHT !? ) But My Father And Mother Inlaw Are. I Am. and My FiancĂ© Is ! My Father Said He Would Be Happy Either Way. My Great Grandmother Always Running My Cousins Up The Wall Saying I’m Having A Baby LoL ‘n But Cam Somebody Give Me A Little Advice Here ?